I have had a heavy heart as of late. Well, really it's been over a year but it's ramped up here in the last couple of weeks. My amazingly awesome Dad has been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. As many of you know, I'm sure, this is not good. Not at all. He was originally diagnosed around this time last year, went through chemo and radiation. The mass which was on his pancreas was cancer free for a while and things were looking up. We breathed a sigh of relief... for about 3 seconds.
Then he began having some pain again and it steadily got worse over the past few months. He was in constant pain until last week when they put in a pain pump which basically douses the area around his pancreas with a numbing agent/morphine. As that was happening they did a scan and the mass on his pancreas had increased in size.
|My dad, shown here, with a mere fraction of his grandkids. I adore this photo.|
A second round of chemo is not proving to be a viable option and things are not lining up the way I had hoped. What I had HOPED was that he would be the 1 in a billion who beat pancreatic cancer. What I had HOPED was that he would be there for my daughter's wedding. What I had HOPED was that he would be around for another 20 years since he is only a mere 69 years old. Now I'm just hoping that he sticks around for longer than the six months they have given him and doesn't leave us even one day sooner.
Since hope doesn't seem to be working for me, I've turned even more to prayer. I know I can't thwart God's will but it has been amazing to know peace and comfort as I ask for it through prayer. When no amount of distraction can take my mind off of this and sleep eludes me, prayer is the only thing that brings me back around. It truly is a gift.
My friend has this saying on her refrigerator and I absolutely love it... "Pray every morning, every evening and often in between." I wanted it in my house too, especially now, so I created this printable and am sharing it with you today.
You can download a non-watermarked, high-quality version in 4x6 (perfect for handouts in church or to give to a friend), 5x7, 8x10 and 16x20 HERE.
(And that fabulous frame is from the awesome Etsy shop Orange Blossom Shop)
I have now placed it prominently in my kitchen as a reminder to me and my family.
My hope for this is that it reminds you that there is always someone to turn to at. any. time. and we are never alone... and prayer is a powerful thing.
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